Amazing little things!

One of the most precious moments during a woman's pregnancy happened for me last night: I felt the first little movements of our precious little miracle! The first time you become a mother, those first little movements are tattooed in your brain. With each pregnancy thereafter, you know exactly when that moment happens because you know what those precious little "taps" are! Last night as I was in bed watching TV, I felt those first 2 little "kicks"!

This meant so much to me! I was suddenly overwhelmed with emotions that I have not allowed myself feel. This pregnancy is one that we never saw coming and quite honestly couldn't believe even happened. We actually "made" a baby naturally, with no doctors, no drugs and no hormone therapies. Due to our past problems, I really have held back in the "attachment" department. That 1st week after we found out was such a whirlwind of doctors appointments, blood work, more doctors, more blood work and ultrasounds. The end diagnosis: everything looks great, hormone levels are great and baby looks great!

Even with the encouraging results I still remained convinced that this pregnancy was going to end just like the others: me and Dale with broken hearts and no baby! As the weeks moved on my fear only seemed to get worse! I was terrified that something was going to happen while Clete and I were alone. What would I do? Who would I call?

Finally last week when we saw our baby, healthy and swimming around like a little fish, I began to relax. But, last night when I finally felt that precious evidence of life, I took the wall down! I absolutely cannot wait to hold our little miracle in my arms and kiss its soft little head! I can't wait to see Dale hold another of his children for the 1st time, that man lights up like a Christmas tree when he holds any baby, especially his own!

We may not have a lot of money or expensive material things, but what we do have is way more precious than any amount or any brand name piece of clothing! We have a family!