From the Heart

I normally only post happy, family related entries here on the blog, but today I am going to get on my soapbox. It's a big box, so get ready! For the 2nd time in the last 2 weeks, I have found out that a young, vibrant young lady( younger than myself) has breast cancer. I am LIVID! I am not a spring chicken, but this disease seems to be attacking at a younger and younger age. I mean how dare this SELFISH, NON-DISCRIMINATING disease keep attacking young mothers! This infuriates me! As a mother you do everything in your power to keep your children healthy and protect them. You spend sleepless nights worrying about their well being. Then POW this nasty disease smacks you in the face! As I sit here posting this, I am looking at my precious 3 1/2 month old baby boy, I can't begin to imagine being too sick to take care of him. It is beyond my psyche, thinking of leaving my children and husband behind! Seeing the beautiful face of my funny and soooo smart 5 year old everyday, seeing my handsome 13 year old Homecoming King turn a double play in a baseball game, seeing my awesome 18 year old(soon to be 19) graduate college, get married someday and becoming a parent himself... this decrepit disease has the ability of wiping that all away! All I can think is WHY,WHY,WHY!

I lost my mother to colon cancer in May. It was too late when they found it. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about her. I live everyday knowing that my baby boy will never know her. He will never be able to go to "MiMi's House" and get fed Hershey Kisses by the bag full, never get to go to Wal-Mart with her and get spoiled beyond belief in the toy section, never get to go grocery shopping with her and come out with endless treats and chocolate milk! Most of all he will never get to feel her hug him, kiss him or hear her tell him that she loves him.

I pray that I will never have to face this awful disease. I also pray that there someday soon will be a cure! To those of you who have battled and have won, you are my hero! To those of you that are battling it now, kick it straight in the butt!! Early detection is key! Get your mammograms, colonoscopies, see your doctors and get your pap smears! There was no history of colon cancer in my family, like I said earlier, it doesn't discriminate! Be strong!

Love to all,
Robin